upon launching dKol [reintroduced] a lot of traumatic events took place both in present time and as well as some past traumas that resurfaced. so much has been shifting in my personal life and I needed to take time to be, to protect myself, heal and ultimately recover. as anyone who has experienced trauma can attest to, it can be complex in how it shows up unexpectedly.
a big part of being vulnerable in this space is to help others know that they are not alone in the shame they may feel. I for one can say when things take pause. that pause can look like failure or even at times cause me to want to quit. I question so much of it, rethink and overthink myself into a complete freeze.
my goal is to be honest and with that I am feeling brave again with the hopes of entering a reconnection phase. I cannot promise I may not disappear again.
I lost sight of my purpose
and my worth.
I questioned my value
as well as my approach and direction.
I decided to pause.
I did not retreat to avoid.
I wanted to prepare for my return.
I sat with my demons as
the negativity kept winning
until I gained strength
to release them.
and I now know better for if they were to return.
I am back, for now.
I cannot promise I may not log off again,
but I can continue to be transparent.
xo-d
upon launching dKol [reintroduced] a lot of traumatic events took place both in present time and as well as some past traumas that resurfaced. so much has been shifting in my personal life and I needed to take time to be, to protect myself, heal and ultimately recover. as anyone who has experienced trauma can attest to, it can be complex in how it shows up unexpectedly.